Tony Blair's former spin doctor opened his public analysis in 2003 when he began to punch himself in a park in London.
Alastair Campbell, 61, from London, is starring in the BBC's new documentary Alastair Campbell: Depression And Me, exploring his mental health problems which has led to reliance on antidepressants.
Speaking about his breakdown, which occurred just after he left Downing Street, he said: 'On the moorland that day, I exploded – I did my own time again and again and I can't t forget the face of Fiona (his wife).
Before that he had been working with Tony Blair as press secretary and he admits he was always busy, but when he left there wasn't a hiding place for what was happening inside & Our head.
'Only as long as you can keep a lid on depression, Alexander admitted.
During the documentary he also examined innovative treatments, which could be an alternative to drugs, and could give them the best of their antidepressants.
Tony Blair's former spin doctor opened his public analysis in 2003 when he began to punch himself in a London park face
Alastair Campbell, 61, from London, is starring in the BBC's new documentary Alastair Campbell: Depression And Me
Speaking in more detail about the event, he said: 'The reason why I was so frustrated that that day was thinking that this depression is never going to go ever – it's t what quite difficult to deal with.
In examining how his past might affect his mental health, he reveals during university that he has drunk heavily and admits there is a point where he became a problem.
Some days I would drink through the day and through the night – at some point it was going from something that was enjoyable to something that became an addiction. ;
His older brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 18, while also admitting he had smoked for 30 years and ate badly – worried that his past behavior and genetics could still be affect his thinking today.
In the documentary he is exploring his mental health problems and he says he has had problems for most of his life.
But when he was 28 he revealed the size of his own depression. His first analysis led to his relationship with antidepressants.
I was a news editor for a national newspaper and I had been drinking heavily, my head was all over the place, I started emptying my pockets and my bag, the next thing was the two policemen This seemed to me and I was right and I said "I don't think I was" – I was put in a cell where I went with all my clothes t off and there was so much going on in my head. # 39;
Earlier in the documentary, his wife, Fiona Millar, talked about his depression: 'It's a big impact on the people around him – he's managing my emotions too – t I felt like I was doing something from my place.
'Only as long as you can keep a lid of depression, &; Alastair admitted in his BBC documentary
Working with Tony Blair as press secretary until 2000 and Director of Communications until 2003, he admits that he was constantly busy but when he left there was no hiding place for what was going on inside. to my head;
In the documentary he also tried different sciences, including Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation – a machine that uses electromagnetic to the brain.
It 's stimulated nerve cells that go into my brain; He said, 'it's not pretending to be a cure, but they claim it is at least as good as antidepressants.
But Alastair is not convinced: 'I'm not sure I would do it in the long run to make the jump, there's so much faith – it's a must. I'm convinced that any new treatment is much better than what I'm on. # 39;
In the documentary he also tries different sciences including Transformational Magnetic Stimulation and MRI scanners (pictured) t
He also visits Roland Zahn, a doctor at Maudsley Hospital in London, who uses an MRI scanner to see how parts of the brain talk to each other.
Zahn says: 'Neuro feedback allows us to look at how brains look at emotions in real time. We want to reduce self-blame – people blame themselves for things that are out of their control. # 39;
Alastair also talks to a man, Ian, who had chronic depression from child abuse, and took part in a clinical trial for an imperial college, which looked at how a class A drug could help him.
Using the active ingredient, psilocybin, of magic mushrooms in a controlled environment, they analyzed how his mind reacted to the drug.
His wife Fiona Millar (left) admits that her depression is having an effect on her too much saying she is also managing her emotions.
Dr Ros Watts, of Imperial College, said: “It's like going to the basement of your mind so you can understand what is there and it will lead to a sense of healing afterwards. # 39;
For Ian, the therapy worked for three months as he said the drug was making him face his fears most fears; through the trial but it is now back on medication as the trial expires.
And although Alastair was completely against drugs, he admitted: f I can think back to my life stages where I think – I would have done so. # 39;
Alastair also talks to Roland Zahn, a doctor at Maudsley Hospital in London, who uses an MRI scanner to see how parts of the brain talk to each other.
All that Alastair considers in the documentary is the analogy of mental illness jars that a Toronto genetic doctor tells him about.
It reveals that the mental illness jars start with genetic factors and that environmental factors can then fill them up, including a number of stressful experiences over our lifetime. But it also reveals that protective factors (nutrition, exercise, family) act as rings to make the jar bigger.
Alastair admits that the analogy has a big impact on him: 'All the things that my jar made were more friends, family, exercise, curiosity, my football team and we hadn't even reached medicine yet – so that was very interesting.
Alastair Campbell: Depression and Me, Tuesday 21 May (tonight), 9pm on BBC Two