You don't have to keep feeling like this.
Childhood trauma, like any psychological trauma, leaves deep mental scars that affect your mind, often as a result of PTSD, or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), which can keep you from recovering from; d long term trauma – years or even decades, in some cases.
There are many symptoms of PTSD you may not even realize that you live with you because you go through childhood trauma in your own way.
The nature of your trauma – together with your childhood history and relationships – contributes to your PTSD symptoms, which means they can be complex and range from the typical ones.
Your symptoms and your life Yes change. You don't have to live like this. This can all be resolved.
If you ask yourself, "Do I have PTSD?" then you probably have noticed some types of behavior or symptoms of concern. So what is PTSD?
It could help to know the trauma definition and if the symptoms you have are "typical" to this disorder.
Remember, however, are you. It will not have the same meaning or symptom as you experience the repercussions of your trauma.
Here are some “general” signs or symptoms of PTSD:
- Distressed, unwanted memories of the traumatic event
- Remove the traumatic event as if it were happening again (flashbacks) t
- Unwanted dreams or nightmares about the traumatic event
- Serious emotional distress or physical reactions to something that reminds you
- Try to avoid thinking or talking about the trauma
- Avoid places, activities, or people that remind you
- Negative thoughts about you, others, or the world
- Despair for the future
- Memory problems
- Difficulty maintaining a close relationship
- Feel apart from family and friends
- Feeling emotionally numb
- Being scared or easily scared
- Always be vigilant for danger
- Self-destructive behavior, such as drinking too much
- Sleep heavily
- Trouble concentrating
- Overwhelming guilt or shame
Most of these reactions are trauma, and there are many cases of PTSD. What lies at the heart of your dreams, nightmares, negative thoughts about yourself, the guilt, and all your shame is a complex meaning.
To calculate the effects of childhood trauma, these need to be understood. You have lived through terrorism. This horror has stimulated feelings that differ from you.
PTSD is about intimidation. When you have experienced childhood trauma, you were in a position of helplessness. Now, the trauma lives in your symptoms and your constant fears.
How does this happen?
When afraid, people respond with a "fight" or "flight" response. But what happens when you can't either fight – or escape – because there is nowhere to go?
That is trauma. You feel you have been stuck helpless in an uncontrollable situation.
In trauma, you are “escaping” in your mind through what psychologists call it united. A disconnect means that you disconnect yourself from your emotional reactions during the trauma and do not feel anything.
In fact, you may feel that you are floating when it happens; as if the one would not really experience the trauma you. This is a kind of "flying."
Many times, that trauma comes back in nightmares, live flashbacks, or different ways you re-live over and over again. Even if you don't have the flashbacks or nightmares, there are other ways you re-live traumatic fears.
The riot lives deep in your bones and you can't dispose of it, even if you thought you did it.
Here are 8 ways you might be responding if you are suffering from PTSD because of trauma: t
1. You are over-cautious and vigilant
Your mind is very alert. It's not something that you deliberately do; it is the effect of trauma.
You scan the world constantly for evidence of danger; don't feel safe anywhere; unable to sleep. You check the locks twice. You're afraid to go anywhere on your own, especially at night.
Yet, it is also difficult to trust that anyone will keep you safe. The world seems out of control. Anything could happen and you're helpless to stop it.
Your only choice, your unconscious mind, is to keep a close eye on everything and everyone around you. This way, perhaps, you can defend yourself this time.
2. You feel dangerous around every corner
Childhood trauma means you are it was at risk. This led to your brain (your unconscious mind deeper) to believe that danger can occur at any time.
You were helpless, and nobody was safe to turn to. Your trauma may have been caused by someone who was supposed to care for you.
You've been very alert, having to look after yourself, by being very careful.
You need to feel control, and know what it is like not to be. Your mind remembers powerless trauma. An over-surveillance and worry about danger have been designed to protect you.
You'll keep an eye out for yourself because no one else can be trusted to keep you safe – especially from the disaster you are certainly imminent.
3. You have a sense of anticipation soon
Yes, you feel there is a danger around every corner. But even worse the horror is that catastrophe is breaking up imminent.
Believe it or not, this riots will often be annoyed if you have anything good. The disaster you expect is sure to take good things away.
Someone could die. You could be killed. Everything will fall apart. You're afraid to make a wrong move.
Sometimes that horror makes you fear going out. Fear to drive. Worried about going to sleep. Even at times panic about what you eat. You are afraid to separate from loved ones.
4. You are afraid of anger, fighting back, or speaking out
Anger is a frightening feeling. You are afraid that you will hurt someone, make them go away, or they will retaliate. So your anger may be hidden, even of you own.
Or, when you are sorry, it could come out in big explosions, frustrating that makes you scared or guilty. You 're struggling very hard to manage it, as you try to control everything else.
Maybe someone is hurting or frightening you as a child. You couldn't fight back when you weren't big, and you might have been threatened or punished if you tried to speak.
So now you're holding things back or assuming that nobody will listen. Probably somewhere inside you, sadness must comply.
It's very difficult not to be able to stand for yourself, but you can't. You swallow how you feel. You don't trust people, relationships, or anyone to be there for you, or to listen.
5. You panic about getting caught or becoming claustrophobic
You feel addicted in many different situations. You can't say “no” or leave when you want to. Maybe, you're even claustrophobic.
You can't get into lifts or be in small spaces. Not into MRI, small room, or crowded area. If you feel you can't go out, you are scared. You avoid these situations at all costs.
If you feel that you have to give what they want to other people and you can't express your feelings or your needs are not open, this is a different kind t o addiction. It is even more important what trauma does to your mind.
Your feelings are caught inside you. You cannot be open yourself. You and your feelings are shut off in a tight box.
6. You are suspicious of relationships
Part of the reason you can't be open yourself is that you are concerned about most people. You're awake to anything that makes you think you don't like, or good enough, or as good as they are.
You compare yourself constantly. Often things seem like diminishing things. You're not sure; being anxious makes her hard to relax.
Basically, it's not easy to trust anyone. Sometimes you don't think it's worth trying to be close, but you're only, so you're doing it.
Yet, as you are always worried about being judged, rejected or used, you will never feel actually closure. There is a vicious circle that you would like to get out of, but you couldn't.
You are almost always in a state of anxiety high or low level.
7. You have depression, anxiety, OCD, or drug / alcohol use
What may be childhood trauma to your mind create depression, anxiety, OCD, and deep and persistent substance misuse.
Constant anxiety, disaster alarm, feelings of serious danger, panic, fears of expressing your feelings are a cause for concern. You need to feel control, and OCD is a way of trying to get it.
OCD means a technique to overcome anxiety. You might be ritual about the things you 're doing. Clean constantly. Or keep things organized. Even try to plan things carefully so you don't make any mistake. A mistake means losing control. But, inevitably, terrible suspicion takes over. What if you are wrong?
It's very difficult to live like this. Especially if you feel there is no relief and no escape. And, this leads to depression. You feel hopeless. Not able to sleep. Dreams and nightmares worry you. You're afraid to try therapy – unless you have missed it too.
Turning to alcohol or drugs can seem the only way out of constant pain. Your self-esteem is very low and you have little hope. But it's important to know that it's not your fault.
You don't have to live like this.
8. You dream again and again about your traumatic events
Your nightmares may simply repeat your trauma, similar to flashbacks. But if you look carefully, there are other additional details. Your dreams may be so terrible, disgusting or frightening that you won't want to sleep in case you get another.
How could they have something to say maybe? You want to get rid of them.
Dreams are messages of your unconscious mind. As much as this is hard to believe, they try to help you calculate the scars left by your trauma. But dreams and nightmares can be very frightening.
That's why it's important to get help from someone who knows how to tell you what they mean.
In particular, you need help from someone who specializes in childhood trauma. You are very likely to fear trusting anyone. Especially if you have failed therapy (or therapies of the front).
When you have had trauma as a child, it is not easy to find a trust.
So what can I do now?
There are some great treatments for PTSD. Psychotherapy with someone who specializes in childhood trauma is the best choice.
A therapist who has trained in psychoanalysis or psychoanalytic psychotherapy is more able to understand the unconscious meaning of your symptoms. When you reach these, you will not continue to suffer.
It is important to remember that childhood trauma you made to your mind does not define you. It 's I am not you, and it's not permanent. All these effects can change.
You have tried control. Escape. Avoid. Here are the methods you have used on your own.
If one of the consequences of your trauma is lacking from people or relationships, then your choice is to rely on you yourself.
If so, you've been on your own with your horror, your fears and your panic. You had no choice but to try and put your feelings in a box. But just another form of flight is coming to an end, and you leave with your symptoms.
If you can take a risk of therapy, you need your therapist to understand and take seriously how difficult it is to trust you.
Psychotherapy can then be in place not to be on your own with your fear, fears and worries anymore. And because these symptoms are largely psychological, they can definitely change with help.
You will learn to trust again, go to the heart of your fears, and mourn the injury and trauma you have experienced. You will learn to be safe again, which is the most important thing you can do for yourself.
Life Yes improving. The effects of childhood trauma do not have to live.
Dr Sandra Cohen is a Los Angeles psychologist and psychoanalyst specializing in childhood trauma and helps you recover from the effects of trauma on your mind. For more information on how it can help you, visit our website to contact her.
This article was originally published in Sandra E. Cohen, Ph.D. To be reprinted with the permission of the author.